The reason I believed you,
was because I myself could never lie to someone about things like that. I couldn’t imagine that anyone could be so insensitive as to purposely give another person false hopes.
I woke up, and wished that I was dead.
with an aching in my head.
I lay motionless in bed.
I thought of you, and where you’d gone.
And let the world spin madly on.
June 20, 2011
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“Heartbreak Warfare” - John Mayer
Drop her name.
Push it in, and twist the knife again.
Watch my face,
As I pretend to feel no pain.
June 5, 2011
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It’s funny how easily we get attach to someone we’ve known for a short time. It’s even funnier to feel hurt when that someone starts to value you, less than he/she used to. And you can’t even complain about it since your just attached and not committed.
Sana Lalake na lang Ako.
Pagdating sa relationships.
Sila kasi ung mas may kakayahan e. Sila ang taga-initiate ng first move, at alam kong KUNG LALAKE LANG AKO, KAYA KONG GAWIN IYUN.
Kung lalake ako, ang mahal ko laging makakatanggap ng sweet na texts, hindi mawawalan ng makakausap, aayain ko siyang magdate, bibigyan ko ng flowers, basta ipapakita ko sa kanya na mahal ko talaga siya. Lagi ko siyang isusurprise.
Parang ang sarap sigurong manligaw. :(
Pero I guess, may mga babae rin namang nangloloko.
Hahai. Kung sino pa ung nakakatanggap ng effort, sila pa ung di marunong maka-aapreciate nito.
Ang unfair talaga ng mundo. haha. ewan ko. :|
“Ang swerte ko sayo.”
Hindi ba’t ang sarap marinig ito mula sa taong minamahal mo? Yung ramdam na ramdam mong mahal na mahal ka din niya, at para bang hinding hindi ka niya kayang pakawalan?
Wala talagang tatalo sa pakiramdam ng isang taong nagmamahal….at minamahal din ng taong mahal niya.
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Dear Future ko,
I always think about you. I always wonder who you are, where you could possibly be, and what you’re doing right now. I have been waiting for you my whole life. I want to meet you NOW, but I know I’m not ready yet. I still have some growing up to do, so that when I do finally meet you, I’ll be ready. I’ll be ready to love you completely.
I don’t mind if you’re not the most attractive guy in the room, or the smartest, or the most talented, or whatever. All I care about is your personality, how you treat me, and how you treat those around you. Please don’t get insecure, because I promise you, I’ll love everything about you, no matter what. Even the flaws that you hate about yourself. I’ll love them because that’s what makes you you.
I hope that we start out as friends first, close friends, so that we can get to know each other better. So that I can be myself around you. I hope that you’ll love me for who I am too, because I know that I’m not the prettiest, or the smartest, or the most talented, or whatever.
I hope that we can talk to each other about everything, like best friends, and that we can make each other laugh. I hope that we can be silly around each other, like little kids.
For me, a perfect day with you would be spent at home. In bed. Under the covers, watching funny movies, eating ice cream.. and cuddling. :) We don’t need to go out to eat in expensive restaurants, or anything fancy like that. Yeah, I would really enjoy it. But just know that you don’t need to shower me with gifts. I don’t ask for much. I just want to spend time with you. take pictures with you. hold your hand. hug you. kiss you.
I hope that you’re the loyal type. Because I get jealous easily. Because I’ll always be loyal to you. You shouldn’t worry if you see me talking to other guys, because it will be ONLY you who occupies my heart.
I hope that you’re also the sweet type, because I want to be sweet to you too. I want to send you Goodmorning texts, and write you love letters, and cook your favorite foods for you. I want to talk on the phone all night with you.
I want to be there for you, I want to cheer you up when you’re having a bad day. You can talk to me about anything, you know. I’ll be there to listen.
I know that we’re going to fight. That sometimes I will get mad at you for something you’ve done. I’ll probably ignore you. Just know that just this doesn’t mean I don’t love you anymore. It just means that I just need you to realize that you’ve hurt me and that I want to hear you say sorry.
If I ever hurt you,
I’m sorry. I would never ever want to hurt you.
I really hope that you’re honest about your feelings, and that you aren’t shy at showing them. If we’re having problems and I don’t approach you, I’m just waiting for you to approach me first. Because I’m kind of shy about mine. But I’ll open up to you if you ask.
I don’t ask for much. All I need is to feel that you love me, that you care for me, and that you appreciate me. I really, really love it when you take the time to put in some effort.
I can’t wait to meet you.
Naiinip na ko. HAHA. KELAN KA BA DARATING?! ANG TAGAL MO NAMAN.
Waiting patiently,
Jessica
May 27, 2011
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Selosa.
Okay. So, selosa ako.
… Nakakaturn-off diba?
Pero sana alam niyo na hindi lang naman kayong mga lalake ang ayaw to. Ayaw rin naman naming magselos e. Kasi alam naming mga babae na naiirita kayo, at syempre, nag-co-cause lang kami ng problema.
Pero ang pagseselos, hindi yan napipigilan, kahit ano gawin namin. Maaaring hindi naman to ipakita sa inyo, pero sana maging sensitibo naman kayo sa damdamin namin. Kung nasesense niyong nagseselos kami, kaunting reassurance lang naman mula sa inyo, okay na.
Guys must read this.
| Boy: | I broke up with her. |
| His Best Friend: | What happened? |
| Boy: | She’s just too much for me. |
| His Best Friend: | What makes you say that? What did she do wrong? |
| Boy: | Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure.. |
| His Best Friend: | So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see.. |
| Boy: | Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy! |
| His Best Friend: | So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see.. |
| Boy: | But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby! |
| His Best Friend: | So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see.. |
| Boy: | I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it. |
| His Best Friend: | So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see.. |
| Boy: | Well, she.. |
| His Best Friend: | You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud? |
| Boy: | I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me? |
| His Best Friend: | You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened. |
May 25, 2011
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Hindi ba’t ang sarap sa pakiramdam yung kampante ka sa taong mahal mo?
- Yung walang halong kaba o pagdududa?
- Yung masasabi mong “Akin na akin lang siya. Kahit may gustong umagaw sakanya, hindi niya hahayaang magpaagaw siya.”
- Yung feeling na mahimbing ka makakatulog sa gabi na walang iniisip na baka mawala siya sayo bigla.
- Yung relaxed ka.
Hindi ba’t ang saya kapag ganon? Kapag ito na ang nararamdaman niyo ngayon, gawin niyo ang lahat upang hindi ito mawala. Dahil kapag kabaliktaran ang nangyari, sobrang hirap na. Halos hindi ka na makatulog sa gabi, iiyak ka na lang bigla sa sobrang takot.
Ang masasabi ko lang, hindi ito maganda sa isang relasyon. Kaya habang andito ka pa, wag mo na ito hayaang mawala pa.——
