I drew @imjennim :) Hope she sees this and likes it. ♥ #art #drawing #portrait #clothesencounters

April 17, 2013 7 notes

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if you ever draw something for me no matter what you think the quality of it is

• i love you
• i love you
• i love you
• i love you

apinchofbelladona:

Dove hired a forensic artist to draw how women see themselves versus how others see them - the results are moving.

ugh this made me so emotionalllll

Hello Tumblr. Do you still remember me? I’ve been inactive for about a year now, with a couple posts here and there. The reason being that my laptop broke down and tumblr is a hassle on my tab. I’ve also been extremely busy and stressed over school. I’m on summer vacation by the way, and have finished my first 2 semesters as a med-tech student. I hope to revive my blog. My lack of self expression resulted in so much stress in my first year of college. I officially hate school. 

What’s up with me? Well, my now ex boyfriend broke up with me 2 weeks ago. I’ll write about that some other time. Actually I wrote about it here and then my laptop messed up again. I didn’t get a chance to save it. 

So yeah, I hope that tumblr will help me move on again. I’ve lost a couple of followers, but that’s okay. 

I’ve been sewing lately and my sketchbook’s kind of been put aside. I was kind of scared to try again because I knew that I wouldn’t be as good as I was before. Last night, I drew this. The pencil feels like a stranger in my hand, like it’s grown cold to me due to neglect. :( 

So that’s that. I will be posting everyday again. I won’t let this summer go by just like that.

xoxo. 

April 16, 2013 4 notes

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So after a week of feeling completely ignored and unwanted, I called him to tell him that I wasn’t happy. I never wanted a break up. I thought he would stop me.

Hindi ka pa ready maggirlfriend.
“Siguro nga.”

Ok. Sige. Babawasan ko na ung stress mo.
“Sige.”
Break na tayo?
“Oo.”

I called him again.
I love you.
“I love you too.”
Gusto mo ba?
“Oo. Iyun ang gusto mo. Para masaya ka.”
Wag mo ko isama.
“Paano kita hindi isasama ikaw nagsuggest?”
…
Ano ba gusto mo be?
“Pahinga muna.”
Bakit?
“Kasi iyun ang gusto mo.”
Wag mo ako isama. Sagutin mo-
“Sinagot ko na yan kanina. Oo. Gusto ko. Ayoko na. Pagod na ko.”

….
“Tama na usapan. Inaantok na ko. Masama pa pakiramdam ko.”
Be. Ngayon lang.
“Inaantok na ko.”
Be, kailangan kita. Kailangan kita ngayon.
“Kailangan ko nang matulog.”
Sige na. Ayoko na talaga. Masakit na. Pwede ka na po matulog.
…..
“Goodnight.”
Goodnight.
“Bye”
Bye.
“Love you.”
Love you too.
“Bye.:
Bye.
“Goodnight.”
Goodnight.
“Baba mo na.”
Ikaw na. Matutulog ka na. Mamaya pa ako.
-hangs up

I needed to know he still wanted to be with me. But he can’t even stay up a little to talk to me. And I’m the only one here who has to wake up early tomorrow.
Ayoko nang pilitin. He ignores me. He doesn’t love me that much, really.

Sige. Kunwari na lang wala akong boyfriend.

Can I just not exist anymore?